Back with an update before I hit the road for Gen Con! You can check my twitter feed over the next few days for live updates. After I return from Gen Con my plan is simple. Spend a lot of time writing.
There are people in this world who knew from an early age what they wanted to do with their life. They had a passion for something and with some hard work made it a reality. You also have people who are constantly scratching their head without a clue. Then one day they roll out of bed, the mid-30’s have arrived, and they are still asking that fundamental question. What do I want to do with my life?
I used to try and convince myself that I was in that second group. It was much easier to say I was ever-searching than it was to admit that I never committed to what I wanted out of life and made it happen. From a young age I knew I wanted a few basics. The first, someone to share this life with and maybe even start a family. I wanted an income that came from something that I enjoyed and to be as much of my “own boss” as possible. Finally, if you asked me that basic question, “what would you like to be when you grow up”, and I answered honestly… I wanted to be a writer. 34 years into this adventure and I still can’t check anything off that list.
There are plenty of reasons why I may never be a writer, but there is only one reason that currently matters. I never tried my absolute hardest to become a writer. The main reason is a fear of failure. What if I put everything into this one dream and it doesn’t work out? I understand how silly that sounds to some people. It would take another blog post about underachievers to really explain the struggle. This blog was actually a first step in getting the creative process going after a long break from regular writing. After months of thinking about it too much I am ready to sit down, kill that pesky internal critic, and just write, write, write.
I was reminded by the ladies over at Chickcast that November is National Novel Writing Month. You challenge yourself to write 50,000 words of a new novel in the month of November. More info on National Novel Writing Month can be found here. It was first brought to my attention when I started listening to the podcast last year. Cory, one of the hosts, had been participating in the project. A few weeks ago the project was again mentioned and I decided that I would commit come this November. I don’t have any expectations for the words that come out of this head. For me it is about doing more writing on one project than I have ever done before. It is about fighting the internal critic, fighting the fear, and walking away with something.